Journey Updates
Update-A-Rama
August 8, 2010 @ 08:55 am
So I haven't blogged in about three months. Why? Where have I been? What have I been doing? Did I fall off the wagon again?It's been a little bit of this and a little bit of that. I had a ton of travel at the beginning of the summer, a lot of work, and very little time or energy left to concentrate on the Journey or the blog. Then when I finally got home and was ready to get back into the swing of things, I fell on the subway stairs and sprained my ankle. Not just a twist, a full on nasty sprain complete with the wickedest, weirdest bruises you've ever seen (one was in the shape of a star). I couldn't walk for a few days and then just hobbled around for a couple weeks. It's best not to push it with a sprain or it'll never heal correctly, so I was stuck.
Then I just got lazy. It's been stupidly, wickedly hot and humid in NYC this summer, and that's left us not wanting to do very much or go out at all. I've been to the gym off and on for the last 4-6 weeks or so since I could start walking again.
I don't think I completely fell off the wagon. I certainly haven't been doing well, and in the last few weeks we've been eating take-out and other crappy food. Towards the end of July I felt myself starting to spiral with food addiction, eating a little crazily anything I could get my hands on. It's been a clear connection between stress and food, lately, with my stress increasing from worries about money and work and having to pay for a wedding and a bunch of other expensive stuff next year. Work's been frustrating. And so I spiral.
But this time we went on vacation. We just got back from an annual family vacation - this time to the Smoky Mountains. The break from day to day life in the city was just right, at just the right timing. The vacation itself was actually rather stressful, but it was still good to break from the monotony of the city and daily life and work (in a total lack of cell service, too). I fell rather rested, and ready to realign and continue on my Journey as I should.
This little break from the Journey is different, too. In ages past I would work out, lose a little weight, but quit and gain it all back until I feel so bloated and gross and my clothes get tight and I can barely get up from the couch. This time I know I've put on a little weight again, but not to those extremes. My aunt thinks I lost some weight (compared to the winter which was SUPER high stress time, I'm sure). The Beau thinks I'm generally lighter than before, too. So maybe, just maybe, my body has adapted to a lighter weight (albeit just a bit lighter) and works to maintain that instead of the 320 it used to.
I won't know until I weigh in, and I won't weigh-in this week. The Beau keeps hammering at me to weigh myself but I've been in that space before - where I convince myself I'm lighter, and I'm actually heavier, and its demoralizing. So I'm going to spend this week getting back on track and we'll go from there.
As far as the blog goes, I'm just really too busy to update a lot. I'm going to keep updating, but I'm not going to stick to any sort of schedule. This is my journal. I'm never going to be one of those bloggers that everyone goes to and reads. If people want to read along, comment and join me on the road, then rock on. But I feel less a need to try to force those connections. I'll continue to twitter, and blog, and create goals, and publish my weights, and all of that. But my job is not to blog, my job is to get fit.
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