Journey Updates
Small Victories
April 23, 2010 @ 01:45 pm
It's been over two weeks since I last binged at night. Before kicking myself in the butt on April 7th about nutrition, I was frequently snacking like a madman. I'd have a "few" chips or crackers, "some" cheese, just "a little" ice cream, "a glass" of wine. It all added up - and in reality I was gorging myself. That all stopped ... and I feel just fine. In fact I feel better. I have one glass of wine a night to wind down with, and that's it. Occasionally some popcorn. But no more binge eating, no more emotional eating.Last night I was having another rough evening. This whole week I've been off-and-on feeling a little down or frustrated about my looks, my weight, whatever. It's all silly and baseless, of course, it's just a resurgence of depression. But I recognize it and do my best to dismiss it. But last night was a particularly good victory.
Normally, when I'm having a depressy evening and I'm by myself (as I was last night with The Beau out on the town with a friend), I'm prone to eating. And eating. And eating. And drinking. And eating some more. And watching television mindlessly while mindlessly eating.
Well last night ... I didn't. I had one thought of it - I thought to go eat the extra food I had from dinner, or pig out on cookies and ice cream. In actuality I only had that thought after I realized I wasn't emotionally eating on an otherwise emotional evening. Then my brain said, oh - I should want to gorge myself! But really, no. And I moved on. I had had my dinner, I had watched some television, and then I turned it off and read my book the rest of the evening while sipping my singular glass of wine.
Yay for small victories.
1 Comment So Far
Reinaldo — Apr 25, 2010 @ 01:45 am
Now taht's what I call self discipiline! You go, boy!